Journal #1

Once again into the breach. Let's see how long this last. I want to make a game.

I should want to make more games, since I call myself a game designer.

But I find my motivation in flights.

Perhaps, I have ADHD, i strongly suspect that is true.

Which is why I started writing this post with a completely different intention and content concept, but just randomly let the words flow in a stream of consciousness spillage and this is what turned out instead. But now I'm journaling. Trying not to be afraid of my own thoughts. I'm not really afraid of my own thoughts, since I enjoy living with them in my head. What I think I'm afraid of is what others think of my thoughts. That's a lot of psychotherapy to go through, and I'm not sure here is the space for it. But, once again, I want to make a game.

I also want to write a book.

But I'm using this journal to start writing about the game I want to make, and hopefully keep track of how i'm going to be making the game in fits, starts, little lessons and hopefully a habit of actually just sitting and making the game.

The game is an ambitious Stealth Extraction ImmSim. Build a loadout, infiltrate locations, acquire valuables, and return to a hub to deal with the consequences of your actions, and plan your next moves. Repeat. Tell a story around that perhaps. and thus I have to figure out how to make it.

that's the work. I'm done for today.